For aid in my meditation, I have, of late, returned to a small book I encountered last summer while I was doing CPE in Toronto. The name of the book is “Time for God” by Jacques Philippe, a priest of the Community of the Beatitudes.
It is a wonderful book and I am happy I am reading it again. In fact, all his books are well worth the read, they are great guides to aiding you in the practice of the spiritual life.
I just read the section on faithfulness in prayer and I found it to be very moving and helpful in my prayer life. He states that if we love someone, then we want to spend time with them regularly. It doesn’t matter how long: the more we grow in love with them, the more we will want to spend time with them. Nor, he says, does quality matter because the important thing is to be with that person and not the eloquence of your words to that person. Being creates communion, words are simply an expression of the inner working of our soul. He states that even if it is time that is poor, distracted, and not producing any sense of accomplishment that this type of prayer is, in fact, more beneficial to our souls than the times when we can wax eloquence in our words or are lifted up into the most sublime feelings and sense of peace. The former is more important than the latter because in the latter, we stay despite the circumstances while in the latter we tend to stay because it feels good.
This has had me pondering further about the nature of prayer because I know that I can be quite weak when it comes to prayer. I am, to an extent, a man of great practicality. I want to know how to do what is necessary, to get the methods down right so as to ensure that the effects of an activity bear fruit for me and others. This is helpful in day to day life to an extent, but I have struggled for such a long time to overcome this tendency with regards to prayer. Why? Because prayer is not our work, but God’s work.
The way to begin the life of prayer is to accept and realize that it is God Who is inviting you into His intimate communion of love. Until this is realized, no real progress can be made in the spiritual life. I recall from January, when we had the seminary winter retreat, Bishop Corriveau quoted St Bonaventure’s “Journey of the Mind to God”. In this, Bonaventure begins with a prologue begging God for aid as he attempts his work. One of his intentions is that God grant him “grace, not understanding.” I remember hearing this and being blown over by the power of such words. Grant me, Lord, grace, not understanding. I prayed on those five words all weekend long. What does it mean, why is it that it hit me so very hard? I then came to realize something: when I have approached the spiritual life, I have approached it as if it were a method, as if it were something I had to do certain things in order to attain certain ends. When we pray for grace, not understanding, we are praying for God to do the work in us. When He gives us His grace, it moves us to a response (which, as Augustine would say, is also graced).
This led me to realize that when we pray for grace, we are praying for the guidance necessary in our spiritual life. God will give us the answers, we simply need to be obedient to them. I have been growing in the awareness over the past year of the absolute centrality of the concept of obedience. Obedience means that when God gives us something, we do not question it, we do not enter into discussion, we simply follow. If God has the best intentions for us, then we can only say “yes” to Him. We often think that God is not giving us what we need. I know I have fallen into that trap. What I have realized over the years is that this is a total lie. God always gives us what we need, we just choose to ignore it, usually because we enter into conversation with temptation instead of listening to God’s still small voice. Am I still weak in not being obedient to God? You betcha! But I know, thanks be to God, that I am growing, day by day, in the realization that His love is what gives me peace, His presence is what grants me stability, His patience which brings me to freedom. The key, I am discovering each day, is to seek out His will in things and to simply say “yes”. It doesn’t need to be complicated, because God is not complicated. Our sinfulness is what complicates things.
So what does this all mean for us?
I have discovered that there important things that are fundamental to every Christian:
- Silent Prayer: we live in a noisy world, but Christ went up a mountain or into the desert to pray. We need not even go to the Church: find a space in your house and put a holy image or icon there. Give God 10 minutes a day. It is small, but it is sufficient. Bring to God your heart for the day. Sometimes it will seem like nothing happened, but, at the end of the day, you will notice that there is a quiet peace about you. It is because you have given God your heart for a small part of the day. Do this every day, though. I know that when I haven’t done this for a day, or even a couple days, my life gets out of whack and I go through all sorts of crises. Root yourself in Christ, He is the rock of your salvation.
- Mass: This almost goes without saying. If you can, try and find a weekday Mass you can go to. There is too much to say about the Mass, but it is also self-evident, so I will leave it there.
- The Rosary: I have, myself, had a love-hate relationship with the rosary. But the more I pray it (and the more reading I do), the more I realize its importance. The rosary is the school of Mary, the place where we see the mysteries of the life of Christ through her eyes. In the rosary, we are in communion with Our Lady. The more you pray it, the more you take on the characteristics of Mary and the more you realize how much you don’t have the faith she had, bringing you to a deeper desire to be formed in the image of her Son.
- Reconciliation: I am so very convinced that this is the great neglected sacrament! This sacrament is where Christ enters our being through the Cross and renews us completely and totally. Bring everything to Him, He will heal you. It is a great sacrament because it reminds us that we are sinners and are in need of God’s healing love. I have never understood people’s fear of the sacrament. It is a sacrament! It is a place where we encounter the Christ in His very Person! Ought we not to avail ourselves of this sacrament? I would recommend it at least once a month. We all make mistakes, we all fail to live up to the image of Christ. Let us go to Him to be renewed in His image.
There is much more I could say, but that is enough for today. I know that when I live out those 4 simple things each day, I am rooted in Christ Who supports me in the day and, day by day, aids me to be a little bit more like Him and a little less like my sinful self.
in the Risen Christ